For those of you who didn’t hear or found themselves wondering why the sudden move to Texas..here is the story in black and white with some splash of color. Have you ever felt like you just lived in the future? Your mind actively fast forwarding to the next segment in your life where you see your self participating in life the way that you desire. Maybe this daydream is filled with wants that are out of reach or maybe they are filled with stuff that isn’t important but would add some cushion to your life… I don’t know what yours is but I know mine well.
My head would tilt to the side, eyes glancing in an upward motion almost as if I am in the same thought communicating with God, asking Him to make these wants a reality. Some of these mind wanderings take me into a marriage where I get to be a wife, a lover of my husband, a mommy with a chex mix of kids, bio and adopted, a lover of people in such a way that we get dirty in loving them and a home where the gospel is the radiant light and misfits and skeptics are welcomed. In this grand narrative I am a photographer who gets the freedom to shoot, create and give lasting memories to many. The soundtrack is playing so nicely. The sun is setting, painting the sky with robust colors and all is happy. I kept hoping that all of these would become a reality but I couldn’t keep living with my head tilted waiting for these sequence to line up before any of these actually occurred. Something had to change.
One day I was sharing again with Casey, who I really can’t accurately put into words what she means to me..the word best friend just doesn’t do it for me, but I was asking for prayer. I had been working 40 hours a week at my amazing church, Treasuring Christ, while shooting full-time during the afternoons and weekends. I barely had time for community or for loving the church and was sinking. She mentioned that in order to make a change and really do what I wanted I needed to consider doing something drastic. That was to quit my full-time job and consider moving in with a family while I worked on making a name for myself as a photographer. I thought, okay I will pray, but was like, no way can I not work full-time and really do this. I must have income and I don’t have a husband to fall back on. The next morning I woke up and there in my inbox was an email with a plan beginning with me quitting TCC and moving to Texas.
After much prayer and a lot of council I decided to take the risk and do it. I packed up my house, stuffed my car and moved to Fort Worth, Texas. Dan and Casey opened their home up to me. They have been dreamers with me and a true gift of provision. I have been here for about 4 weeks now. I have a partime job at Starbucks while I work on my photography business. My head still tilts, I am definitely still dreaming but I am close to making some of those sequences a reality. I don’t have to be married to just be a photographer, nor care for orphans and participate in adoption. I hope to use photography to help give kid memories that otherwise they wouldn’t have known or been given the opportunity to know. These are just part of a much bigger picture that I get to be a part of. I am living a new segment, full of change, hope, fear, excitement and a ton of color.
come with me.
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daniel